To love and be hurt... or to be hurt and loved

Haiz.. well.. where 2 start... mmm... with me 1st ba..

went up to d girl i liked and told her... and it wasn't a yes 4m her.. cried a lil... then got comforted by the world's best team of psycologists, a.k.a. my friends at 4S3... (Yee Kha, Gloria, Vin, thx you guys :) haiz... felt terrible after dat few days.. felt dat shouldn't hv told her anythin at all.. also got angry a lil at her cuz felt dat she didn giv me a chance at all.. she said that she made a promise 2 herself.. which i understand but i still felt angry dat time...

then there's Chloe... 1 of my friends at school... well d story's way long and even more complicated than add maths but it's sorta of d same context with mine (LOVE... LOVE... LOVE...) she broke down after dat.. started crying also... then now she's gettin better but still traumatic after d whole thing...

i had d priviledge of comfortin her... gettin 2 know more about her... i found out how different some1 is than u expect... i found out dat there's more behind d hardworking Chloe... well here's a big shout out 4 her:

Jia You Ba!!! I know u can do it!! :)

to Chloe: thx 4 comfortin me and letting me do the same to you. to "the girl": i'm really sorry if i hurt u in anyways and hope 2 be forgiven.

" It's better to loose you pride to the 1 u love, than to loose the 1 u love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those that we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give."

~ Cik Zamimah, Biology Teacher 4S3 2008~

When you look me in the eyes...

when you look me in the eyes,
i see your thoughts,
i see what your thinking every second,
and maybe something more.

when you look me in the eyes,
i see your emotions,
i see fear and scare,
but i also see kindness and love.

when you look me in the eyes,
i see my reflection,
i see all the possibilities of us being together,
i also see me hesitating,
on whether to go for it or not.

when you look me in the eyes,
i catch a glimpse of heaven,
i find a paridise,
when you look me in the eyes.

packing up.. and moving on + new interest

hmm.. long time havent touched my blog.. 1st of all welcome 2 my new blog..

it's getting 2wards the end of d year. just finished my Kursus Pemilihan PRS 2008. i was one of d fasilitator disiplin. had lots of fun but the work's not done yet. have 2 pick those potential to be permanent members. for those who dun get picked im really sorry but u y'all hav been really great.

nowadays i'm getting less involved in both debating and pbsm. there's no more debating tournaments and d only time im busy with pbsm is when there's a casualty. guess it's time to bring out the books and start studying for finals (SIGH!!)

as for d new interest.. well guess im lucky enough 2 meet some1 who's able to make a spark everytime i see here.. not too sure whether she feels d same.. she's still hesitant about everything.. too reserved and lack self-confidence. but it's that that makes her different.. something that's cute, a lil beautiful and.. hmm.. gotta think bout that.. :)

if that GIRL knows im talking bout here.. well.. thats it.. now you kno.. just hope u dun get too freaked out and run away.. SERIOUSLY DONT GET FREAKED OUT!!