love... a story

long2 time ago.. a prince thought he loved a girl...
his friends told him that they were a match...
and he believed them...
b'cuz he himself also thought they were true...

he told her I LOVE U,
she said yes and they were happy
the prince thought they would be together and happy
not forever, cuz he's not counting the days,
but just enjoyin evry momment wit her..

then one day, when evrything was fine,
he noticed that how things were always one-way,
dat he poured out his sould to the girl,
bt never felt anythin in return...

the prince told the girl all dis,
in the end they seperated

there wasn't a day the prince didnt thought
how happy they could've been together...

so cherish who u hav rite nw...
bcuz u nv kno when u might loose them

I LOVE YOU

8 letters

3 words

1 meaning

"831" / from another blog

最幸福的是。。。

you r... haiz alwayz make us worry bout u...
c u hav so many gud frenz..
make a sob and evry1 immediately come 2 u...
za dao~

well u said no "jia you message",
so here goes:

'hugs"
其实应该在学校已经给你个拥抱了，不过看你没心情的。。
anywayz, don't think i'm gonna comfort u..
i alrdy did dat at school~

i'm nt saying it's anyones fault,
b'cuz u both hav ur own pblms and own reasons...
i'm nt gonna tell u gud luck in nx relationship,
cuz u dun need luck in real love ;)

dun giv up on ur "Miracle" hope,
b'cuz miracles DO happen,
ur's just hasn't arrived yet~
mayb it's more special than others !?!

concentrate on ur studies nw...
go for ur SPM with confidence...
and make sure pn. chong can buy u ur winnie pooh bear
bt dun too geng r! ltr i suicide lor~ then u'll miss me HAHA
(damn de perasaan-ness get 4m gloria aleidi :P)

i'm nt askin u 4get evrything...
cz u should be proud dat u could handle it fabulously and wit style!
i wun tell u 2 be strong, b'cuz u ARE strong,
and no1 can beat dat!

+ pRiNcE_wAiTiNg +

The Ugly Truth...

she yelled at me, with an insulting look,
i nodded and remained calm,
i felt anger boiling inside myself,
bt amazingly i wasn't on the edge of slappin her...

my school's teacher Cik Tan apparently either is stupid,
or listens to only half of stories,
she thought i was backstabbing her during a school mag meeting,
where in fact i was just expressing the problems i faced with the photos.

she kept on repeating that it is my problem i couldn't get things done,
that my pc was too old and had not enough capacity,
then she added oil onto fire,
claiming that many teachers do not hav a good impression about me.

any of u guys who are best buddies with Cik Tan,
pass her this message:

Cik Tan, you are one of the most unprofessional teachers i've ever met.
Instead of having the guts to scold me privately,
you told me off in the staff room, with many teachers as witness.

You kept saying insulting things at me,
but when i asked: is it true that many teachers don't like me,
or is it just you?

You immediately looked away and changed the topic.
You replied with a weak: Oh! I don't know about that,
but i'm telling u that u'll hav a hard time working in the future!"

If you don't know about anything, how could you have said
that many teachers dislike me in the first place?

You couldn't even bare to look into my eyes when you were yelling at me,
you kept lookin to the sides( a tell-tale sign of lying!)

You had to ask other teachers to join the argument,
which shows you did not think through it well - what you were going to say.

You kept on insulting me, saying it's all my fault,
yet you made no effort as to explain why i was wrong.

I'm nt gonna waste my time cursing you,
or even hating you. B'cuz that'll just make my life difficult.

If u're a Buddhist, then you should kno about karma.
What goes around, comes around.

If you're a Christian, you'd kno that someday
when the time comes, you would hav 2 answer to God why you did this 2 me.

I did nt even bother to raise my voice, or try 2 get revenge,
b'cuz I kno dat i'm doin da right thing,
I'm innocent and hav no single trace of guilt,
and u yelling at me in front of da teachers,
just proves how immature and unprofessional u are.

i was sure i wasn't talkin 2 an adult,
bt rather a 6 year old spoilt brat who couldn't get her candy.
u yelled b'cuz u needed self-assurance,
and b'cuz u were acting hastily.

by the way, u kept on stressing dat it's nt ur fault and it's all mine.

Question: if u're innocent (like me), why bother yelling at the top of ur voice? if ur clean, then you'd hav nothing 2 worry about, right?

i do hope you would change your attitude in handling these issues,
b'cuz nt all students are like me. most would puncture ur tires, spray pain ur car, gang up and harass u, and even worst things...

sports day

waliao damn tired when go back home...
2day sch sports day...
PBSM won again kawad kaki!!!
5 years streak dah!!! haha
bt CCH damn emo after dat..
cz pengakap trained hard 4 d-day...
haiz no worries la... nx year let da juniors go 4 it again la~

leo club had sales (F+B).. i saw nt bad la...
wats even more surprisin is dat dis year pbsm business VERY good...
i count roughly 13-15 ppl pengsan lieh..
gt one even really totally pengsan til cant buka mata!!

then it waz fun la... took a few pics wit bear family n jia xin..
vincent won again for 4x100 (yay!! congrats =>)
so.. emm dats all gua
ps: da pics i postd on friendster profile

looking back, front and moving foward

problems!

haiz... dis week hasn't been really good...
quite a lot of stuff happend~
gt vincent punya la..
then WN+R punya lu~

both damn sad... both quite complicatd...
i alwayz wished dat there's dis book...
when evry time gt stuff like dis..
just hav2 refer than kno how to solve it~

i look at winnie and ronald evryday
(well, nt much choice cuz i sit nx 2 them like spot light ;P )
and i'm really happy 4 them...
bt sometimez it makes me think about myself~

da 1st thing in my mind is:
y can't i b like them? i kno mayb they're diff. in some way,
bt evry1 deserves 2b happy rite?

it's easy mayb 4other ppl 2 love some1,
bt 4 me i want it 2 mean much more...
mayb dats y i alwayz set my aims too high~
cuz in my mind: if it's just surface-look, wats de point?

i feel so emm... useless gua...
its like why can't i get seom1 dat i like (and she also likes me back),
and just be happy wit her?

then durin dat time, when WN punya pblm happend,
it waz a lil bit scarry 4 me actualli~
watchin them like dat.. even though i'm suppose 2 be immune 2it...
even though its none of my business...
bt it just makes me think back... 1 month ago~

i hope they nv com 2 dat step;
seriously... bt i'm nt tryin 2force them 2gether...
jus hope all da best 4 both of them...

to WN+R: u guys hav made my life much more crazier than i can ever hope 4...

dun stop it!! haha

HELP College

phoo... so tired 2day... dunkno y~
went to HELP college wit 5s2+s3
listend 2 da lecturers talkin bout different bidang..
askd some Q's on psychology~

had quite some fun...
then went back home kena nagged by mum again!
said must study hard ... ... da same stuff of course...
haiz~ oh well..

anywayz i myself olso gotta really start workin hard..
4 mid term exam...
so wana get kawad kaki over wit..
less one thing 2 think about!

picked da wrong time 2 start reading twilight series..
nw onli in new moon... addictd 4 some reason...
haiz... then learnin hw 2 play yiruma's river in u and bella's lullaby

mmm... magazine olso really buzy...
gotta teach 2 kids hw 2 use photoshop...
then gotta get all da pics 4m other ppl...
hate this part cuz they alwayz so lazy and diffucult 2 deal wit (teachers+students same aje!)

mmm.. dats all gua...
dunkno wats gonna happen nx... ;)

to Vincent: Jia you ba! if he's guilty then

we sama2 beat da shit outta him!

你不笨，只是不会说 (2 WN)

haiz... 今天听了你对我说的问题，
让我吓了一点，我在想着会不会有水灾，
不果档然很开心你相信我，
因为把心情瞒在心里会很不舒服吧？

mmm.. 可能你是比较害羞的吧？
因为这样所以才不会和他说你想要他留下来。。
不过我觉得你应该对他要求吧，
只要不太过分，我看还OK la...

long story short, 不要怕把你要得东西说出来，
因为你那个“孩子”还是第一次有女朋友吧，
而且你也会说啊，他都是比较小孩气吗。。
所以就要你这个成熟的来“move”他luo...

ur not useless,

just dat u dun kno da words 2 use.

dun force urself, but nv give up~

walk away~

i tot i would cry...
i tot tears would run out.
bt until nw its still nothin...
absolutely nothing at all~

it's over.. juz like dat...
and on our 1 month day...
she just said it out...
y dunt we just be frens and see wat happens?

here's wat i say:
i'm breaking up wit u...
and i dunt care about wat happens nx...
i dunt need any hope given from u..
and i tinq it's pathetic 4 me to cling on to any of it...

i dunt need any regret, bcuz 4 da past month i've been really happy,
i learnt how 2 care and love... and most of all i enjoyed evry single momment of it,
it's just bcuz u were like a stone.... totally blank and blind 2 my feelings 4 u...

i dunt mind breakin up.. i tinq it's better dat way...
and i'm tellin u here dat i'm happy nw.. which iz why
there aren't any tears... i feel great nw...
and i'm now happily, and proudly saying SINGLE

thx a lot to winnie, victor, ronald, and all da bear family ppl 4 comfortin me (more or less). don't bother tellin me 2 try patch things up wit her, cuz i kno there's no tomorrow wit her.

to victor: thx 4 tellin me ur troubles since yesterday.

hope ur OK. never worry about being No. 1, bcuz ur alwayz

da champion and winner to ur frenz and

most importantly, urself !! :>

to winnie: thanx a lot! 4 evrything... (and ronald also).

不要应为我而以后和 R躲在一边， 我还是希望你们

每天那么幸福，那么开心。 有时你和我一样，想很多。

其实你要相信他，让她照顾你，呵护你，有时

爱就是那么简单。加油吧！

these days, i've noticed how important frenz are.

how we should talk 2 each other more,

and how better it makes us feel,

by telling some1 we trust bout our pblms.

i feel very lucky dat i hav a few ppl 2 tell my pblms,

whenever i feel like it;

and dat these ppl wil also tell me theirs,

so da i can just listen and let them blast it all out...

frineds will be more important than ANYTHING in life.

money, love, and even sometimes family can never equal to friendship,

no matter how u balance them...

~ It is not who your friend is, it's what ur willing to give that determines how much a friend u are~

tagged by winnie

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions.Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them.After doing this, tag your 21 friends to do the same.

01. Winnie
02. Ronald
o3. Victor
04. Vincent
05. Yee Kha
06. Gloria
07. Le Yi
08. Miko
09. Cch
10.Chee Han
11.Hong Sheng
12. Thomas
13. Bryan
14. Phitak
15. Jia Wen
16. Hema
17. Liyana
18. Julius
19. Jia Zhen
20. Jasmine
21. Jia Xin

*How did you meet 7?:
Form 4... when she needed some1 to talk 2 *^

What would you do if you had never met 15?:
no1 would curse wit me about some1 hee~

*What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?:
em... i would go comfort ronald 1st~ then cry over y my daughter iz les de~

*Have you ever seen 17 cry?:
no la~ nt dat close wit her

*Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?:
damn sure wunt happen ;P

*Do you want to be 13's friend forever?:
hmm... would hav a gud Add-maths tutor xD

*Do you think 11 is attractive?:
erm... its cool he haz 6 pax.. mayb should ask kit mun gua

*What’s 5’s favorite color?:
tinq purple ba~

*When was the last time you talked to 9?:
juz at sch.. told him i broke up haha

*What language does 8 speak?:
bc, bi, mayb another one also

*Who is 13 going out with?:
no one gua

*What grade is 16 in?:
same wit me

*Would you ever date 17?:
nt prepared 2 become muslim... plus i tinq she alrdy gt BF la

*Where does 18 live?:
somewhere around kinrara gua

*What is the best thing about 4?:
great listener ^^

*What would you like to tell 10 right now?:
y cheat on chee han make gloria pregnant lagi?!?

*What is the best thing about 20?:
can bully cuz of height =>

*Have you ever kissed 2?:
never and no thank you (unless i wan commit suicide la =_=)

*What’s the best memory you have of 5?:
when kena zha bo by winnie -_-

*When’s the next time you’re going to see 4?:
waliao ! evry day at school?

*How is 7 different from 6?
7 iz shorter and havent kena zha bo yet!!

*Is 2 pretty?:
totally wrong word 2 describe... yeng then ok la

*What was your first impression of 15?:
em... oh ya (WOW ur big~) haha!?!

*How did you meet 3?:
4S2 (2008)

*Is 15 your best friend?:
no.. juz normal fren

*Do you hate 12?
nah.. he's gud to tease ^^

*Have you seen 18 in the last month?:
evryday durin rehat~

*When was the last time you saw 16?:
dis morning (moral)

*Have you been to 5’s house?:
no... mayb when she gt license? haha

*When’s the next time you’ll see 10?:
tomorrow ~same class lagi

*Are you close to 11?:
nt really gua... bt we live nearby 2 each other

*Have you been to the movies with 4?:
nope..

*Have you gotten in trouble with 8?:
no ..

*Would you give 19 a hug?:
nt ready 2 be killed by julius~

*When have you lied to 3?:nope...

*Is 11 good at socializing?:errr.. ok le

*Do you know a secret about 8?:yes~ ( and it's *tooooooooot*)

*Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.:
they just kno each other

*What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9?:
v gt tortured by winnie together~

*What’s the worst thing about 6?:very perasaan~

*Have you ever had a crush on 12?:nt gay~

*How long have you known 2?:a couple of months onli

*Have you ever been in a fight with 13?:nope... no reason to

*Does 11 have a bf/gf?:nt yet gua

*Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?:
i wanted straight away send her 2 her grave (but economy nt good.. coffin very expensive)

*Has 21 met your mother?:nope

*How did you meet 11?:school (4S3 2008)

*Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?:nope -_-

*Do you live close to 7?:nope.. qt far away

*What is 8’s favorite food?:errr... sushi?

*What kind of car does 1 have?:
i hope she nv drives.. i dun wana be killed ~

*Have you traveled anywhere with 9?:lagoon gua ^^

*If you gave 14 $100, what would they spend it on?: thai food?

wow not bad r... quite true

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

we are actually really different

now i onli understand
how much different we are
now i am onli clear
of who ur really are

ur quite secretive and nv show ur feelings
i'm sometimes really at a lost
bcuz i don/t kno whether u hav da same feelings 4 me...

winnie ur rite... v both alwayz hav da same situation..
两个都好像不会做那样..
but u don't kno how lucky u r...
at least ronald's feelings u can feel them...

i regret tellin u da truth
about how i never can feel ur feelings...
about how i'm like da one dats stickin 2 u..
i really regret it

bcuz nw i m really confirming it
i kno its really true

i dun kno wat 2 do now...
and so i'm askin u
do u really love me?
or do u hav even da slightest feelings 4 me at all?

do not say yes just bcuz u admire other couples
do not say yes to love for da sake of love...
if there is no feeling at all,
wats da point? y even bother?

WN: dun 4get u owe me 1 kaunseling session ~_~